It's not the content that counts, but the name!

I was deeply saddened to learn of your grandmother's death and I would like to express my sincere sympathy to you and your family.

We are never prepared for the loss of a loved one, but God is always prepared to help us through that loss.

"Nous sommes à Dieu et à lui nous retournons"

Fasting for a whole month, that's what my friend Hicham suggest... I don't know yet if I can do it or not, but I guess I will do it, I don't have a thing to waste, I will get lot of 7asanats ;) yknow what does it mean to fast 30 days before Ramadan, I did like fasting every Monday and Thursday, I enjoy doing it even if in the summer the weather isn't that helpful and the time from the sunrise til the sunset is too long...ok it's a suggestion and we will still talk bout it. 

Hey everybody, really I don't know what to say but you have to accept my thanks, once again the blog is one of the most visited this month, I just can be happy cuz of that, and I will try my best to write more things in the future and change some stuffs...I wanted to write this post yesterday, so I couldn't for some reasons...It was a good night yesterday with the spanish music, it was romantic time... I wrote a new poem...I was standing in the moon light don't know what feeling I got, I can say it's a heavnly emotion... got some ideas on what happen in the other side, God only knows... but we will see then.

Holla... don't know what title I have to put for this post, it's something diff I'm going to write bout right now and so far away...it's clear in my face now, I can have an opinion without going and start thinking bout the changes yheard me? what can I say more than few words in here, but my heart's full and my mind too, I amma tired, can't sleep at the good time..and I can get up earlier.. the first thing I have to do is to think, maybe becuz I opend the door somethings, I had to let em out for some more time, but then the rush as always ( bad job) it isn't going to blow my neck I think.. cuz I'm still hittin the road and the streets are talkin ( I ain't the game)..today was a real goff jorney, I went for a visit to the friend of my mom, her name is Fatima and the berber ppl spell it like Fadma, that isn't our prob here, they're all names, we have to look to who takes the name! I have to say that maybe she were crazy bout this visit, or perhaps maybe I am just wrong with my thinkin, eh the most important thing's the visit!!! her doughters are too old now, back in the days I could see that they were young enof just too young for me??? but everywhere there are changes.. I didn't do the visit only cuz I got that idea in my mind, but cuz I read bout it, it doesn't mean that I miss my mother only now!!! but I'm always missin her, always thinkin of her in addition to other important things, when I started talkin with her bout that she were like whoa...me too I didn't know what happen, cuz I had a bizzar feeling, my mother is feeling what i'm doing and what I’m going to do in the past...many questions she gave me, and more answers I told her, she could know that I’m still the way I was before, perhaps there were some lil changes, but the most important thing that I....they were happy cuz of all the things they heard bout me... the poems, the music, my sisters and so on and I gave her a promise that I’ll keep it this way, I’m not living for maself but I’m living more for the others.

I just came back from the hairdresser or as we called it the 'Hejjam' yeah that job Tahejjamt who remember that??? when we were young, with 3Dhs (0.07$) you were be able to cut off your hair as you wanted, but now everything is changed, if you wanted to cut your hair, you have to pay 1$ or sometimes less, but there are some ppl who enjoy pay more, that what changed but the other things are still the same, you can wait for your turn while you're watchin the tv's and drinkin the tea or talkin bout politic or other important things, so you win some other important things... I prefered to write down some songteksten for my crew, while I was hearin some words from the old man in the corner, his words were like honey and butter...in a while I closed my eyes and I forgot everything and I sleept away just 5 mnts then it was my turn, I was lookin at my self in the miror who's that? I don't know who is he but all I know is he is someone, who loses his color, hahaha that was in the lyrics but maybe that's true... what do you think?

Yesterday we supposed to go to the beach and spend some moments across the beach, but the weather wasn't good at all, like it wanted to rain... I can smell you I can feel your hand on my shoulders...I miss you, everysecond you're in my mind, it became hardly to think of the other things, but I love it when I did it yknow, I just want to forget everythin, ma name maself my... but I won't forget you nahmeen, I'll go again to the sea just to see you and talk to you and show you how the feelings are true and big, why I chose the sea cuz is a part from nature like you're a bird in my heart, he can listen to me and he can advice me bout lot of things...that love is growin again everysecond... you're a moon and I'm just human so you can see the diffrence.

Amor con amor se paga
Amar sin fronteras es amar sin limites,
Estar cerca de ti es estar lejos mío,
Tu corazón es parte del mío,
Tu aliento mi exhalación, mi alma
Será para siempre tu espíritu creador.

No olvides con odio,
Porque el odio se volverá en contra tuyo
No olvides por capricho,
Porque no podrás con él,
No pienses que no te quiero,
Porque no es verdad,
No rías con miedo

Porque en llanto se convertirá,
Ama a la luz del sol,
A la luz de la luna,
No te olvides que yo fui,
Soy y seré, quien tu amor se lleva.

Yesterday or the whole day, I was away with some of my friends, we went to the beach at 01h15 with youssef car, in the streets of the center of the city I make lot of noise again with some other cars hahahaha you can imagine wot I did, but then you'll say it's stupid thing, but I love that yknow...ppl got routine and get bored if he didn't make some changes on his daily life, thank God I find a way to enjoy everyday's things but still somethin which can not make feel good til someday I think of that everysecond whatever, we went away just to spend some hours over there, but I didn't want to go back til the morn...it was a great night had to write our names on the ground with stones and did some stupid things...the cars were like whooooo they runed fastly, but everytime I turn ma face to a car I saw NL and some numbers so why all that happend with me???? still a big question but no answer, but I think it's something from the sky...we walked for tens of Kms we watched the couple and the new ppl who got married... they were happy and stuffs I wish if I could talk to them or be on them place, but that not poss for now but later if you want to, we three make lot of noise so all the ppl were lookin at us but shhh we took pictures of them with our gsm's cam hahaha, we took some pics with SINDEBAD remember the cartoons of 90's yknowhat they were great you'll see the pics here...after that we decided to write the names of our lovely girls on the smoth sand so we had to take some sand from the sea it was hard things, cuz we were tired and it was heavy to take... at that time I runed away from them I want to make you with me yknowotImsayin I mean feelin and seein you and I was lucky again cuz you were here again, but I couldn't turn my face so you'll shhh go away but I enjoyed it very much, I could feel you next ta me seein you, but it was dark, the air was fresh and the salt water too, I asked you for somethin if you'll accept it or not, you smile to me so I wrote a new poem on the sand only for you, nobody could see us talkin to each other and luaghin in lovely way, but suddenly you were away again, you leave me alone with ma poem again and again, why you try to run away from me everytime.. don't answer I know that I'm not lucky!

I shed some tears and I talked to the sea, I could listen to his music his natural speech, I left my poem there so the sea clean it... it was a moment and ...

I went back to them, I found them scary cuz they though I went to the sea and I ...

we wrote the names, and we had fun it was 4 in the mor I didn't want to go back cuz I like it so we stayed there til the sun rises again, but I have you in my heart takin care of you, do you mind if I rang you in the night, when you're sleepin away??!

here I put some pictures but they're small cuz the mob makes them that way so I can't help it yknow that.